The never ending work and higher mental demand in university have unfortunately taken all of my time. Sometimes there's just nothing to report or to say. Sometimes strange incidents out of nowhere keeps you pretty occupied.

Well holiday's weren't the most excellent this time and did include changing my bedsits lock with a massive cost and never ending rain. (Positively thinking the next one should be a blast!)

I remember a few years a go (I think it was a new year) in the centre of Helsinki when fighting against a snow storm we tried to make our way back home. Finally after 20min walking in thick snow and 20min of waiting we got a cab and decided to have the best after party among adults that you can have. Changing from party outfits to more sport orientated, "borrowing" a few kids toboggans and soon we found ourselves from head to toe covered in snow cheeks red and eyes glowing from the wine from the bottles in our hands smiling to the first rays of sun in the horizon.

Oh memories, oh times...

Here's a few pics from the last months. Again: Pictures tell more than a thousand words!

Pepper cake house I made for the kids in one of the families I help/work as a babysitter. Was a big HIT during christmas I heard.  

My family remembered me during christmas with a lot of finnish sweets (still got some left!), chocolate and something else to keep me warm during long winter nights than my course books. 

Shauna & Me ready for The Halloween party!

Halloween continues with work colleagues And you just can't wear the same outfit two nights in a row can you?...

Best breakfast ever.

The picture above was again from one of these days when time slows down and you smell, hear, see and taste all the details of the time passing. Of course in these special moments you are always prepared and on your best... like in your fart pants, no make-up and Tina Turner hair taking your dirty laundry for the coin launderette near by when you find your way to next door cafe that blows your mind and takes your breath away. So many gluten-free options! You wouldn't believe! They even make their own gluten-free pasta! So there I was in this chic cafe/restaurant with my blue IKEA bag and fart pants enjoying the best breakfast ever while my laundry spent some rolling time in the washing machine next door.

Lately London hasn't exactly made me feel that welcomed as a sometimes even promising student nor as a hard working immigrant.  Things may be a bit grey at times and you're not always prepared for everything. Least prepared how the bureaucracy makes everything look so good on a paper but in fact things are everything else than that.  Actually the hatred and mistreatment towards immigrants is unbelievable BUT there are those who actually stand on your side and help you get through. I didn't even realize that in this short time period here I have made so many good friends!

 In conclusion the people and these small little funny moments make everything worth while...

Here's a song that makes me cry every single time I hear it... Becoming old and sentimental? Nah! Let the year 2014 be the year I find a man who can sing it!

PS. Over a year ago sent me a letter telling me everything she wanted but could be hard face to face or you just never tell those thing. I adopted her idea so don't be surprised if you get letter from me. (No nothing bad! Even thought I'm a person lacking a filter from the front of her mouth and who has too many things to say that most of the time wont make any sense.. this is purely a promise I made for the year 2014: Contact everyone who has a great part in your life!) 

Once again one of those mornings when you have to wake up and get prepared to face another day at work and end up rushing there with your head as the third leg (like we would say in Finland). During that maniac rushing around and only minutes of serenity occur in the escalators and usually you empty headed stare at the adverts or try to catch an eye contact with the hotties traveling the other way right?...

During those couple of weekend days I found myself overwhelmed about the beauty of the strangest features of peoples calcaneus tendons. Too short trousers and a pair of women's leggings revealed everything to me!

"Why are those so visible?..."

"Is the person way too skinny?..."

"Omg they are sooooooo strong!"

"The right one is slightly tilted due to the collapsed arch in the foot or too much of an eversion..."

"You can really see the lines and features of them"

"Could I take a picture of them?"

You may get a clue what it's like to catch yourself thinking thoughts like this?... And this didn't happen just once but every morning last weekend on my way to work!

 In what point can you say that you have san a bit too much in to the world of osteopathy and medicine? There's nothing wrong with some curiosity right?...

And the Cupid has also thought me a lesson or two.... That winged small guy's arrows are blimey sharp and that's not all! I'm pretty sure he has learned some Kung Fu too! After these bruises of love you would think that you would get smarter in time but yet again I find myself with an black eye from Cupid: We had such a good time, he seemed to be so into me and then I don't get text messages/phones calls in time nor even proper answers....  This time my good  friend Jaqs opened my eyes and returned me back on the surface of the earth and I realized again something that I learned when I was only three years old and absolutely fascinated about the fish my mom cached into a bucket in one of our family summer vacations at summer cottage back in Finland. "Why would the fish move their mouth if not to speak?..." So I spend my time with the professional  serious look and handling skills that only a three year old can have to teach them to speak. After hours still nothing... Oh that disappointment and humiliation of not succeeding!

In conclusion: don't try teach people to do/see/speak things that aren'r really there: it's like teaching fishes to speak. Things don't appear out of thin air! (And if he can't see how awesome you are why to bother? His loss!)

So just to save the leftovers of my sanity, emotions and time I just better move on and continue with my life. Besides... it's HALLOWEEN!

Halloween's traditionally the end of harvest celebration and the day when the line of the spirit world and our world is at it's thinnest. Western civilization has found an amazing way to celebrate it by dressing up to spooky (slutty among adult women) outfits and running around trick or treating for candy when a kid and after some booze deals in adulthood. 

So of course there are some wicked parties to attend on thursday, friday and saturday! 

Once in a while you wake up to "live in a moment" and the time freezes for a split of a second around you.

Just like last week when the first thing that I did during that day was to swing with the kids, play hide'n seek and have a picnic under a big oak tree while it was raining then gathering myself to university lecture to DR and investigate the amazing anatomy of dissected heads and in the end of the day find myself at work adjusting glasses and giving style advice.... in the evening I stopped for a second with a small smile on my lips and started giggling to myself.

At least the day passing is never like the day before!

I decided to avoid sleeping with my windows open. There are some odd creatures outside. At least it sounds like it. Sometimes it sounds like a child is hurt (which always wakes up my motherly instinct...) and in seonds it changes to a wicked  witches laughter and from there to the spooky callings of an owl.

Yep I'm talking about the city foxes. More multilingual imitating animal is still yet to be found to beat the fox!

Just to save the remainings of my sanity I'll keep the window closed...

And the next video I just had to share. Those living in northern countries will understand this nordic idea of a romance 100%! 

And you wonder why I moved to London?... 

Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the simple gestures etc. But you just get bored if this is the highlight of your romantic relationships...

Oh those sweet memories!

Unbelievable how my work and studies can effect  my blog writing! But no worries sweeties because mama's back!

Still working and studying my ass off as usual and still single. Not a many things have changed I must say. BUT I do live now only 10min away from the uni and have my very own (rented) bedsit in amazing safe and green area with lovely neighbours.

And I actually dated for a few months but unfortunately things can get a bit complicated. And no. Not a result from internet dating. I actually had a few dates from all of those pages and met interesting people. Some more charismatic then others and a couple of dodgy ones too.  Dinners, stand up, drinks, parks... You name it! There are the ones that are really looking for something with all their hearts and those who simply uses it as sort of a game. Have to say that I now understand how some can find the other half from the cyberspace but also learned that it simply isn't my thing. I need to meet the person face to face. Eyes are the windows to the persons soul they say and I agree to that 100%.

Maybe now when I'm not looking I will be surprised by the most amazing, tall, dark and handsome gentleman with a bit bad boy in him.... OR I find myself again next to a neurology and clinical methods books wearing still yesterdays clothes and wondering why I didn't even bother to take my shoes off when crawling into my bed?

Here's a few moments from the last few months. Pictures tell more then thousand words!

When I had the change: Notting Hill Carnival!

Dancing, music, people, sun..

Other times when not at work or uni revising in the parks.

Back home in Finland. Parents place.

Sometimes I do miss the sea.

Well not the seagulls 

Helsinki = Blocks of flat Vs. Nature. Love it! 

One of Helsinki's landmarks: The Helsinki Cathedral (or the Church of Doom as we finn's know it.)

Notice the population? Yep... and look at the logical architecture and city design. BOOM! 

From my old neighborhoods in Helsinki. Used to live around the corner! 

Helsinki by Night

One of the best parts when visiting Helsinki: Catching up with my friends and my friends Mia's and Lauri's beautiful wedding music, dancing, games, international atmosphere... (with us being the nosiest table at the reception and me baking the famous hangover cupcakes. Delicious but the icing looked exactly like done by a hangover baker with terribly trembling hand..and why did all of us in our group have a extra bottle of the "strength drink" when finnish weddings are famous of having an endless supply of alcohol? I can always trust my friends!). The conversations with Mari reminded me again how lucky we are to face challenges.  It wasn't a surprise to find myself with yet again getting these brilliant ideas with my friend Anne: Hangover dinner at McDonalds. (Gluten free!) and a desert at Hesburger (another fast food place). Why?!... And oh those amazing sangria spiced conversations and memories with Milja and Saara. Priceless! 

Beautiful just married couple and the cake cutting.

Fish, potatoes, summer salad... the beauty of finnish food!

It was such a weird couple of days when getting used to London and routines again. After those days I realized how London has become my home and a big part of me. I'm always finnish and will keep the national characteristics exposed to the world (wether they like it or not...) but you can't take the London out of me anymore. (Or should I say me out of London?) Well anyway... this is my home now!

My home. Finally traditional London living!

even got my coffee maker in MY kitchen!

Marilyn or anatomy posters: Decisions, decisions... In the end didn't want to scare the possible suitors away! 

thanks to IKEA for making all this possible!

I'm sorry to let you down and write about something completely different that you expected.

For months I been thinking about the wordless messages I send to others to be read. No guys, not that flirting thingy with dirty eye winks, sex appeal and lustful expressions that I tend to do apparently 24/7 according to your reactions.... but those even more settle messages. (Why on earth I otherwise would receive so straightforward questions and sometimes questionable messages?) The way you walk, look at the ground while walking or other peoples eyes, what you do with your hands and so on. Universally the  body language is pretty much the same but the appreciation of boldness and humble shy modesty may vary.

That's what I think is completely wrong with me!

First of all it would be better that I would walk in a sluggish way so that no-one else around me would feel offended by my posture. My bubbliness can also be offensive in these depressing times. But the worst is probably my way to dance and laugh all the time because everyone of us knows that it's one of  the biggest sins is to be happy if you don't have 80 000 billions in cash, 20 known BIG cars, your not a know movie-star, producer, model etc. have a personal trainer and other staff looking after you!

But there's even more to it:
In UK people seem to be obsessed about the social classes and which class they belong to. If you're born in the UK you can usually smell, see, some how know with your 6th sense in which group the others belong to because it doesn't matter where you belong to as long as your above others!

Traditionally you were in working-class, middle-class or one of the more equal ones: Upper class. Each class seem to love to socialize only with the others in their class and love to aim to be on the top ranked ones in their class.

There are do's and don'ts in the classes and there's the one thing I fail all the time. For example I love all sort of music (jazz, gypsy folk, rock, pop etc) , wearing a lot of colors and thrift shopping and in UK it's just not that IN to recycle things, take the environment to notion and therefore shop secondhand. (FACT: In this consumer culture companies don't want to manufacture anything that lasts so everything new seems to break in no time. Second hand usually better quality now a days.) People in UK are still so absurd when it comes to nudity and bare feet that lets not even go to that... So my open mindedness in cultural/more physical things makes me a kind of urban gypsy.  Gypsies are considered to be in the lower ranks in the social class system . (WHY?!) But wait a second: I know who Dorian Grey is, have read the Odyssey etc. and speak 4 languages. That's not all! My english accent is apparently slightly more posh.  So what does that make of me?!

No wonder I can't find a man! The poor guys are completely puzzled what to do with me!

In the Scandinavian countries and in Finland there's no such a thing as class system. A slight system but eventually everyone has the equal change to socialize with anybody and climb as high in the ranks as they want. You literally get all the possibilities to make your life anything you want to make of it. (YES we do have those individuals that instead of taking the responsibility of their own life, blame the society and just "hang around" making world a better place with different chemical triggers.) We are as strong as our weakest link philosophy works! If somebody in the "lower class" has a brilliant idea we use it to improve the system. (In companies it means that a lower rank workers gets an amazing idea that the managers decide to use to invest with the systems they got and BOOM! More money for the company and workers get more efficient in their work. Unlike in UK where innovative behavior is considered to be the biggest crime against the country and crown....)

This is one of the secrets how Scandinavia and Finland are internationally successful countries.

But loved ones we live in 21st century! Traditions are shattered and altered. For example traditionally with my background I would have been previously in the working class. Then in the middle class (on my way to the top!) but sweethearts it's not that easy anymore. Behold! I'm one of the emergent service workers.  In english it means that I'm absolutely broke but socially and culturally on the top. Actually most of the people in this group are young and finding their place in the world A.K.A. students.  Find out to which class you belong to!

Back in Finland studying is appreciated thing to do and you can switch careers at any point of you life. Individual development is always good! Over here the first thing that everybody asks after finding out that you study: "So...when do you graduate?".

Eventually the last few months have been the time for me when my rose tinted glasses has shattered into small little pieces and my heroic bohemian ideal of sacrificing everything (flat, career, belongings, relationships..) to finally follow my dreams looks like the most stupid things I could have ever done.

Expect as a idealistic bohemian individual I still stubbornly keep on believing that I did the right thing by following my heart. Suddenly it's so much easier to sleep and wake up in the morning (mostly) excited about the new day ahead.

It's terrible to find yourself under a massive pile of books and realize that lately you haven't really had a life at all.

Well to be honest that's not completely true but mostly YES! As you all are aware my life isn't really the most peaceful one and I'm actually working and studying my ass of 24/7.  (Ashamed to admit that haven't been in the gym that much nether...)

But this all should pass in couple of weeks when the exam period is finally over and I can concentrate in work and workout!

But just to keep you updated what is happening here when I'm not signing, flirting and dancing with my colleagues at work or having a massage or trying so "leach" the wisdom of the book in to my head at the university:

1. Rollers skate night with friends was amazing! If you want to try something new and gain a few bruises at the same time. Try it out! (Ice skating 100 times more easier than this.)

2. Girls nights out! Everybody needs these right? As usual the evening included a few drinks, dancing and somehow ending up to VIP section and that's not all. There's even a picture taken of me and Shauna in Facebook.

Is that...?!

... Well hello there. We've been waiting for you all the year..

First official drinks outside in London or as we would call it Finland: Terassi kausi avattu! 

3. Online dating. YES! It's completely normal thing to do as a super busy single in London so folks back home don't you dare to take piss out of this!)

Internet is full of interesting people and interesting approaches. Have to admit that occasionally I had to look again and look again a bit harder when facing a text from some inspired individual with the interests of flesh or all ready jealous personalities who got absolutely upset when not answering in the next 2 hours.

BUT there are some decent guys and actually I have had some lovely dates. Some that made you realize that it was nice to meet that person but there's no chemistry and those that made you want to know more about that person and woke those lately really sleepy butterflies in your stomach.

 My next blog update will give you a bit more detailed list of experiences and DO's and DONT's

Summer's finally here!

You know the big news? It's time for some amazing ice hockey again! The Ice Hockey World Championships are held in Stockholm and Helsinki this year. I've missed only 1 game so far (and the end of the first game because being too excited about a date where I got late btw but hey c'mon! SPORTS! And FINALLY a nice date with a nice guy!)


I even got Jaqs and Shauna to join me to see the game against USA. The game results weren't that nice and Shauna tested the limits of my PMS by cheekily in an irish way supporting USA.

Raw food diet affects us all!

Shauna, me and Jaqs

I think that the goddess of fortune is laughing at me at the moment. We started our university project in Naturopathy this week meaning that we'll be fasting for a week. As a raw food fasting healing crisis I've spent all day in bed barely able to keep anything in... and that's not all! No way... My periods started at the same time AND due to all this pain, vomiting and dizziness I couldn't make it to the Famous 3 Kings pub at West Kensignton to watch the game. Why me?!
BUT Finn-Rus 3-2!! (unfortunately working tomorrow when we face Austria but I'll keep my phone updated with the game results.)

Finland has done well so far and I can't wait to see the next game!